This year is a milestone for everyone in our family.
I turned 40.
Morgan turned 18.
Kaitlyn will turn 13.
Lora will turn XX.
Yesterday our little gun store had it’s one year anniversary.
We all started taking Aikido classes.
Morgan will finish school (maybe) and will start driving by himself (soon).
Morgan had his first breakup (she broke up with him) and broke up with someone else.
We got a personal loan earlier in the year so that we could build our credit up and then we bought a used car (awesome 2007 Suzuki Grand Vitara) on credit. The first things we have had to make payments on in years. This is actually a big step for us. I am not to big on being in debt to anyone.
With our new found credit worthiness we must have peeked the USDA’s interest because they are now going to garnish Lora’s wages if we do not enter into some type of agreement on a pay back plan for a loan that we defaulted on in 2001. They have been taking our income tax refund every year to pay it off, you’d think that was enough but obviously it is not. They would rather see us on welfare and food stamps as long as they get their money.
Wow, what a year and it’s only September. Life zips by so quickly it is hard to know what is most important outside of family. it won’t be much longer before it is just Lora and I. Then what? When we don’t have them around to focus our attention and rearing expertise that we have gained and honed over the years, then what.
Hopefully our gun store will get to the point that we can have someone else mange it and have a chance to enjoy some time together for a change. Maybe we will get a chance to do a little traveling or get to take a vacation for the first time.
Whatever life has in store, I guess we will find out in due time. Though life is great and full of experiences that build who you are, the concept of life on an eternal scale seems so meaningless. No matter what religion you are, this life is too short to make a difference in the overall scheme of things. Even if you believe in an afterlife, what good does having so few years do when compared to all of time. It makes my life seem so pointless. In a thousand years I won’t even enter the radar of my descendants or anyone else for that matter. I hope that I am around in a thousand years to enjoy my descendants. To see their lives and be a part somehow.
no one knows for sure what happens after you die. No matter how much you believe or how sure you are of your God or religion, no one knows for sure.
So, regardless, you must live your life for this life.